On Sissies, Part I

I probably know more about sissies than the average person. When I was 15, I found my 17 year old brother’s best friend in my room with only a pair of my panties (and a big smile) on. As a 15 year old bitch-in-training (as only a 15 year-old girl can be) I took advantage of this and blackmailed him into letting me dress him up as a girl in my bra and panties, pantyhose, heels and a "Sunday" dress. Then I made him up with my make-up and took his picture with my instamatic camera. I still have that picture today in my scrapbook :-)
I didn’t want to tell him, but it made me tingle all over that I was doing something that I considered very nasty and perverted at the time. And although he didn’t want to tell me the same thing, it was pretty obvious by his reaction ;-)
We became "partners in crime" after that. He would come over to my house and let me dress him up whenever my brother was at soccer practice and my parents were out. Eventually it went a step further and I actually lost my "real" virginity to a guy in drag. (Entered a lesbian relationship at 14 with another best friend)
Luka and I are still best friends now, and we even dress up, go out and do girly things together, sometimes with his wife, sometimes without. He is small boned enough and has a tenor voice that he can actually pass. And yes, he is totally heterosexual.
Which brings me to a common myth, that a guy who likes to dress up in feminine things is gay. Personally I don’t understand the reasoning behind this. Sometimes I like to dress up in a t-shirt and jeans (although I always wear my naughty underwear underneath). That doesn’t make me a lesbian, does it?
Ok, so I am bi, but I know lots of straight women who do the same thing. Although women in pants used to be scandalous in the 1930's and 1940's, and were thought to be lesbian. We look at that bias, and think "how outdated is that?" So why is thinking a guy who likes the feel of lingerie any different? In fact, I prefer guys like this, because they tend to be very tactile, sensual lovers just like me.
I guess what I’m saying is that just because a guy is a sensual person, and loves the feel of silk on his skin, does not make him gay. A lot of heterosexual men start out that way by simply stealing their girlfriend’s, or sister’s, or mom’s panties or nightgown to jerk off in.
Many "pantyboys" are bisexual, or gay, but then many gay men don’t wear girlie clothes either. I don’t think one choice or fetish determines the other.